Well, my friend, Pinky, we are in the same boat. The waves are crashing, and we're getting wet with others' spit. I understand completely what you wrote in your last post.
People question. All the time. We've gotten:
"So, when are you and Ricky going to have kids?"
"Do you and Ricky even want kids?"
"Are you and Ricky thinking about having kids?" (As if a brain wave can create a child. Really?!?)
Here's what I'd love to say:
Ricky and I hump like rabbits, but we don't reproduce effectively as they do! There, are you happy now?
Alas, here's what I really say:
"Well, in God's timing."
It is SO easy to get absorbed in your own world. Thoughts about not being able to conceive, when others around you are popping out kids like pastry from a toaster.
The hardest part? We've been trying for three years. Yes, three. So, now, friends are not only done having their first, but they've already had child #2 or are starting on #3 or higher.
Even harder? I have some friends/family who brag about being fertile. That's like bragging to a poor guy on the street that you're a millionaire and walking away without helping him out.
Am I bitter? Yes. People have no idea how they hurt you. Words spoken can't be erased from the heart.
Do not give dogs what is holy, and do not throw your pearls before pigs, lest they trample them underfoot and turn to attack you. ~Matthew 7:6
What does this mean in relation to my venting?
I've learned not to share things with people that don't understand/care. I'm not going to throw my valuable reasons for why we can't have children to those who would be judgmental/heartless. So, very few people even know.
Pinky is one of the few who does. I know she keeps that secret locked away and prays daily for us. For that, I am every grateful. Pinky, you are no pig!
SO, to make this post even longer. Here's what God is teaching me:
1. Forgive(it's SO hard).
2. Rejoice with them that rejoice.
3. Weep with them that weep.
4. Do for others and don't focus on self.
5. Pray--a lot!
Why did I title my post "Aunt Dotty"? I'm on the dot. Yes, my period has come--again!